canary

"i don't know where a part of my heart is"
think he left it
on a train station

half-heartedly
he sang along with canaries
they filled his head with pointless dreams

the godless child sings
in the tune of unstructured complexity
and ends with no trace, of anonymity

Fate is written in his face

on being a film director unfamiliar with the more practical aspect of film-making, federico fellini once said, and i quote loosely, "people will always try to scare you with technique".


i do not envy those who've worked longer than me, who studies harder, or had suffered more, nor those who knows more than me, or spent more hours in the studio.


i have been discounted at times on the basis that i have less 'experience', that i didn't gone through the familiar rite of passage many people in this industry have, who every so often feels the need to elevate themselves by being condescending and hopelessly pessimistic. for the things i lack .. i see things beyond what they are. the big picture.


negativity, not a quality that i aspire to. (which is why i like kids, they're always happy and optimistic. rare things in adults.)


i haven't even showed half of what i am capable of. it's unnecessary for me to do so anyway at this point. even then (and this is probably me at most arrogant self) i believe i am doing an excellent job at work.


and i never. give. excuses.