anjakan paradigma

i will always love you.

" biar berputar utara selatan"

tak putus harapan

anjakan paradigma.

tapi kan,

"you are my poetry from god"

tak aku sangsi. tak aku ragu.

kurniaan yang teragung

akan ku jaga sebaik mungkin.

notes

what you did was very sweet. i'm sure they all agree.

your generosity is very overwhelming. but so appreciated!

you really should have nothing to worry about. so many people love you.

who cares what people say?

it never pays to say bad things about people. i need to remind myself at times as ive slipped ocassionally.

now that i'm earning a bit of money, i was thinking of putting some to help victims of war. i feel very blessed right now to be able to finally earn, though it's not that much.

you envy what i have, and i envy what you have. soon, god willing, we can provide and lead one another towards what we want.

i love my friends ;p i have so few, and we don't even see each other enough. but that's the beauty of it.

i love you. i say this at least fifty times a day. even when i get upset.

i treat you like no other. friends can attest that.

no one can love you like i do. and vice versa.

i have little money and few success. for you, i will try my best to make you proud.

p.s. i love you

horizon

we are so incredibly different, you and i, our personalities, our lives, our work, our upbringing. most crucial, we both hold vastly opposing worldviews, including religious and philosophical standpoints. and we are both opinionated, at that, but of course you think i know nothing ;p hehe. just kidding.

many people would at least seek someone with at least with some common ground. but we are like the earth and the sky. we are so different, and yet along the surface of the earth which meets the sky, there lies the link that binds us. imagine the sky without the earth, the horizon of which speaks of the infinite would simply cease to be.

the horizon is the manifestation of our love. it extends infinitely. it links the earth and the sky. it forms our understanding of perspective.

i would have written this so much better with a computer but i'm typing with an ipod.

good night

it is 3.33 am. i am trying to sleep.

it is 4.44 am. listening to songs. still awake.

it is ... 5.55 am.

i need u.

and good morning bytheway

clouds

perhaps the day was not as perfect as it could have been. i guess some things are simply out of our control. i hope me being there helped a little, if anything at all. i hoped i was funny enough, i tried to be funny. you were, as usual, making me smile and laugh, despite everything. you know what, i feel so blessed for every minute that i get to spend with you. i love you.

...

i am an andriod with delayed reaction
trying hard to emote

there are so many things that i want to say
but i will keep it short and sweet:

you took care of me when i fell ill

thanks for that
it says so much.

unfiltered

you have no memory of what happened
nonetheless

there is nothing quite like
looking so intently
at the one you love so dearly

you smiled a smile
one only i can see
one you can't ever recall

as if
we were the last two people on earth

symmetry

sayang
loves
baby
loves
sayang

to boycott? or not to?

want to make a change? why don't we start with our lifestyle - to a sustainable one. easier said than done. if anything, america had successfully brainwashed us all to embrace a full-fat, sugar-high, greedy and lavish consumerist lifestyle. we consume so excessively more than we really need to.

let us embrace a more thoughtful way of life. respect the very earth that we stand on. be thankful that for whatever reason, we are blessed with a safe and civilised environment.

at sentul

since you were not there. botak decides to have his picture taken.

traces

1.

in a harrowing order
the wave washes over
the sands, and with it
every trace of us
and we traced over
and over again
we take on the waves
but we are nothing
compared to the mighty sea
our trace fades
in nothingness we cry
in our very tears
we drown

2.

even in your absence
i find myself thinking of you
dreaming of you
i'm afraid of saying things
knowing how words can hurt
how i try so hard
to make you happy;
to say the right things
i find myself writing silly unstructured poems
leaving notes and messages while you were asleep
i want to tell the world that i love you
hoping you would know that i really do
and i will say them so much more when i am with you
god can't imagine
how much those three words are said
when i am with you

you think i love weekends?

i hate weekends
i feel most lonely on fridays
these past few fridays have been bearable
but the goodbyes are not (bearable)
i fucking hate weekends.

hijrah

for you, i will
do anything

as you will for me

today you gave me the gift of touch
while i gave you a set of new eyes

wait for it

of four posts, and honesty unfiltered

reality is simpler than we make it to be
today's message is a simple one:
every day, i love you more and more
aren't we the lucky ones?

life is short
i have to make the most of what i can give
for once, it isn't about me

ceria

hari ini hari yang ku nanti
terubatlah rindu dipendam diri
dapat kita bersua lagi
beradu kasih, bersatu hati

dan ceritanya juga begini
tentang pamela, mahesh, hafiz, kahoe, bhavani
ku rasa begitu rendah diri
datang rezeki tidak tercari-cari


(very lame :) i know)

let go

life is short. the world can be a very depressing place to be at these times.

i am actually very happy now, finally being in a comfortable state of mind. it feels much less intense, as if we're floating on water, buoyant. to feel mutual love is a great feeling. it brings me a smile when i think of how blessed i am to be able to feel the way i feel.

let us make the best of it. let go, love and be free. express. what have we to lose?

milk

in loving embrace
in every little detail we reminisced
and every romanticized gestures we make
in your eyes that is so far away
and your vivid occasional smile
in our constant longing for one another
and our anxiety of being apart
in the calm of the evening
and the sound of the andaman sea

in these
shall we not ever forget

boo

di antara kamu, pernah lihatku begini?

sayang
terima kasih atas kepercayaan yang
tidak berbelah bagi

kita satu.

"sepi"

pour your tears
into my empty heart

fill the empty vessel
with your love, your pain, your everything

these form the blood
that fuels my beating core

what use is the heart
without that very thing that gives life life itself?

with your blood flowing through
i feel every prick of your pain

in a heart's beat
i would give my life to ease your sorrow

"you are my soul"
to those four words shall i hold on to

your lonely soul
i shall keep still, and hold dearly

till the very end.

i love you
aku mahu mengerti
to share
susah, senang, semuanya

whole

terima kasih sayang
for the experience of a lifetime

i love u
so much.

i trust you.
and i want you to trust that the above is true

utusan ringkas

i do.