trouble

remember when i told you that you were looking for trouble ?
you were asking for it. you got what you asked for, in ways unimaginable, even for you. i bet you had no idea that i would do what i did; that it would turn out so fucked up as it did. i'm sorry.

remember when you told me that i could have both ?
my conscious would not have allowed it. and it would appear that i might just end up having neither. and lose much more from it.

remember when you asked me to wish you luck in love ?
well, it is turning out well for you has it not? i think i made the right decision, even if it meant sacrificing a large chunk of my happiness. perhaps things would have been different had i not been in the picture. your happiness is in your own hands now.

and. i. end. up. causing. trouble. one. after. another. going. from. one .deep end. into. another.

and i end up, as always, being the transitional person that ignites change.

and. i. end. up. crying. again. alone.