five working days
like anyone else i work five days this week:
monday 9 a.m. - monday 9 p.m.
tuesday 9.30 am - wednesday 3 p.m.
wednesday 11.00 p.m. - friday 3 p.m
saturday 3.00 p.m - sunday 3.30 a.m
sunday 10.00 a.m - ?
i'm not kidding. ninety hours already. and that doesn't include tomorrow. that will add up to one-hundred-and-twenty-hours hours of work in one week.
why the fuck am i doing this to myself? i don't know.
perhaps i worry that i am not as resilient as others.
wish me luck okay. trying my best to remain an optimist after this is all done.
opportunities.
"why study for so many years to learn how to do a high rise, when you can do it now?"
there are two ways to see this: an unnecessary effort, or an opportunity.
at one point you have to starting owing/owning it up. take responsibility, not only for yourself but for the team. even when it seems so ridiculous and unjust (why is that i, a trainee - of all people - must tell others how to do their jobs properly ?). i ended up doing so much more than what i was assigned to. the hundred hour week this week didn't bother me as much as that i had to do 2 to 3 times the amount of work most people were doing. yeah, like finishing other people's part of the deal. or else it just couldn't be done on time. so i could just leave em on their own, but the work wouldn't be on par then. fine: i understand that we are a team and everyone has varying abilities. but i don't think some of them even understood the amount of pressure we (lyn and i) were under to deliver this project well.
at the end of it all, i'm a normal human being, like everyone else. on top of that, i have other projects to worry about.
so why do i do it? because i see it as an opportunity? perhaps. there is a reason, i'm sure of it, but i can't actually pinpoint what it is just yet. but he assumed to much though when he said those words. architecture doesn't appeal to me so much anymore. not at this rate.
i am so tired. just kill me already and be done with it.
monday 9 a.m. - monday 9 p.m.
tuesday 9.30 am - wednesday 3 p.m.
wednesday 11.00 p.m. - friday 3 p.m
saturday 3.00 p.m - sunday 3.30 a.m
sunday 10.00 a.m - ?
i'm not kidding. ninety hours already. and that doesn't include tomorrow. that will add up to one-hundred-and-twenty-hours hours of work in one week.
why the fuck am i doing this to myself? i don't know.
perhaps i worry that i am not as resilient as others.
wish me luck okay. trying my best to remain an optimist after this is all done.
opportunities.
"why study for so many years to learn how to do a high rise, when you can do it now?"
there are two ways to see this: an unnecessary effort, or an opportunity.
at one point you have to starting owing/owning it up. take responsibility, not only for yourself but for the team. even when it seems so ridiculous and unjust (why is that i, a trainee - of all people - must tell others how to do their jobs properly ?). i ended up doing so much more than what i was assigned to. the hundred hour week this week didn't bother me as much as that i had to do 2 to 3 times the amount of work most people were doing. yeah, like finishing other people's part of the deal. or else it just couldn't be done on time. so i could just leave em on their own, but the work wouldn't be on par then. fine: i understand that we are a team and everyone has varying abilities. but i don't think some of them even understood the amount of pressure we (lyn and i) were under to deliver this project well.
at the end of it all, i'm a normal human being, like everyone else. on top of that, i have other projects to worry about.
so why do i do it? because i see it as an opportunity? perhaps. there is a reason, i'm sure of it, but i can't actually pinpoint what it is just yet. but he assumed to much though when he said those words. architecture doesn't appeal to me so much anymore. not at this rate.
i am so tired. just kill me already and be done with it.
posted by (nothingness) at 07:16
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I think you have not reach your limit. And as long as this is the case, you'll keep pushing yourself. I've come to realize it's only natural.
I really hope 120 hours p/week is the worst case scenario.
Monday off kan? Go to spa man, it works like heaven on earth :)
Btw. Keluar topik sikit. I was at Heritage Row. The worst fight I've ever seen took place 10 cms away from me. I think the guy is dead. I still cant get over it.
What a day/week it has been for us all.
(thanked god I didnt go to heritage row, was thinking about it but staying at home watching Gilmore Girls on DVD wins my mind big time!)
anyways ... Its 12pm on a Sunday. I shall be heading to my office at Putrajaya and do work. thats like an hour drive away and its freakin' Sunday but I have to.
so, here's to working, and freakin' traveling and thinking, thinking hard, that it will all be worthwhile.
smile for me bro! :)
don't die okay.
that sucks balls
hey faiz,
hope you aren't feeling burnt out and tired. recognize your limits and be wary k? driving back from office at 4 in the morning after 2 days of unrest is dangerous.
take good care = )
ajjie: yeah, what a week. on a brighter note, it's been four months.
cosmic: cheers! we finished the thing, and might i say we did a good job. certainly could be better, but i only have two hands and 24 hours in a day.
pinK: surviving.
nik: haha. sometimes it's not so bad.
chern: thanks! i am tired, but not burnt out yet.
faiz,
when I did my training at maxis, I had no background/basics/whatsoever in corporate communications, becos I was from an international business/accounting background. I have no PR knowledge, except my natural interpersonal skills. and come events, corporate events to be exact, I had to think and act as someone with all the knowledge needed, my boss had no time to train newbies hence, everything, is all about catching up and grasping at the first minute.
I did well. Events with key people of telco industry from India and Indonesia. Big stuff.
But there are times I wanted to cry. I didn't have a guiding hand. I guided myself in the dark, only by voices of command by the superior powers.
to top all that, I was at the midst of doing my thesis. my final year thesis.
its been a year since I finished school and its my 8th month in my first job.
things will turn out fine. as long as you know what you do and what you've done and be able to smile, knowing that you've done more that you would expect yourself to do.
smile bro. we sure wanna see that "yusry-look-a-like" smile (hahaha, annoying innit, to always be associated with him)
Hey dude, don't kill yourself. Wouldn't be the first case of burnt out in the field of architecture.
I'm sure the experience is invaluable, and your portfolio is improving.
Perhaps, that said, maybe now you know what you DON'T want out of work life.
I'll see you soon (you'd better quit your job around January). Haha.
well if is it true architechture is becoming less appealing...theres always photography for ya pal ;) and you're so good at it, you ALREADY HAVE A KICK ASS PORTFOLIO[if you take the time to gather ur work and put it in a book.] so you dont even need to worry about photo skool ;)
jangan lupa rehat sekali sekala ok!
you know im actually quite serious...so yea...if you do decide one that this is not IT for you..you know there are other options out there ;)
ull do fine in whatever..i have faith in you
cosmic: truly admire your achievements.
aida: will do. quit by january
nadi: photography eh? think i'll do that for fun for now.
work kills our soul :(
SoMeTiMeS lIfE iS.....bUt ThEn It Is InDeEd A bLeSsInG KoT..i Am TiReD tOo
my mom's best friend is arguing with her daughter to not take up architecture. crazy hours and not a safe path, her argument goes. haha. my view is one should do what he/she is passionate about lah kan?
shahrul: maybe we haven't found the right job?
sean: yeap. i agree
mohani: i wouldn't encourage being an architect in malaysia. haha. but u can't stop people from pursuing their dreams eh?
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