... is so unbecoming

i have never treated you as well as i should. i cheated, and you knew. cheated, and i never lied. i gave you a hard time when you annoyed me with your paranoia, and all those annoying questions. i am blunt to a point that leaves no room for a confrontation. enough people have said how how difficult a person i am to deal with. and still, after all the shit i gave you, why the fuck do you still want me? so that i'd repeatingly ( not a word but ... ) break you heart? so that you'd lie to yourself, that you could accept me doing whatever-the-fuck i want to, and be okay with it? i don't kid myself. i don't need the drama. let's be mature about the situation, and leave it at that.

can't force it, love.